Wednesday, December 31, 2008
have u ever felt so irritated with yourself? so frustrated you just feel like cursing and fucking urself upside down? im feeling it right now but i have no clue WHY.humans~ goodness. too much uncontrollable emotions to deal with. i wonder if its PMS.
ok lets forget about it.
ho ho!
can you believe it? its the last day of 2008!!
its sad to leave 2008 behind.. IT HAS BEEN A FRUITFUL YEAR!!
i reunited with my friends and that means a whole lot to me. i'm so happy im back to having them by my side. and also, i made more to be kept friends. :D i love all of you.
Irfan's presence is a blessing. my family has gotten a lot closer with him around. the atmosphere in the house is different too. its rarely the quiet boring grown ups locking themselves up in their room anymore. with Irfan around, everyone including myself will gather at the living room watching him, teaching him this and that, watching tv and we'll even eat together.. wow. it is so rewarding to be an aunt. i love you Irfan.
and of course, finding myself a good job. (stressful at times) BUT i am the luckiest girl on earth to have the sweetest boss. i think i should stop bragging about him already. haha. but i cant help it he's too nice. i love you boss. (ya please raise my salary)
yeah of course along the way some shit happened. but i'll take it as a blessing in disguise. i'll learn from my mistakes. i am growing and still learning on how to be a mature young woman!
okay. to wrap up, i thank Allah for giving me life, love, happiness, wellness and EVERYTHING else. ALHAMDULILLAH.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
smiled at 2:14 AM
Sunday, December 28, 2008
men who abuses or uses coarse language on a woman, don't deserve a woman at all. seriously. if u cant control yourself, if you dont know how to be patient being with someone, n u dont try to make that someone happy, why be with someone?i just watched an episode of a telemovie about this man who abuses his wife. gawd its so sad.. so so sad. his wife was a typical soft woman. i mean. yeah some women are just plain dumb to let herself be treated that way. but im a woman (not yet?) and im not the type who fights back. and besides, i sort of know how it is like to be in that kind of position. its not easy.. really. its a pity.
as much as i hope all the wives and gfs out there are happy and about.. i know thats not the case. i just hope they'll have the courage to get themselves out of it.. and be with a man who deserves to be showered with the love that they have to offer.
why am i so emotional right now? moving on..
like finally, yesterday i met up with the girls. it felt like 2003 with all five of us walking down the streets of Orchard Rd.
we use to do that almost every other day. school ends, go straight home. get ready. and off we go to Far East Plaza. hehe. we'll have our lunch at Cahaya Restaurant, where the owner love us. we know cos we always get free stuff like shark's fin soup, you char kway or fried wanton. hehehe. so in return, we're the most loyal customer EVER. (i think we all can memorize the menu by now.) and after our meal, the tradition is to go to the toilet and touch up on our make up for about 30 minutes or so.(plus camwhoring) then we're down to business. SHOPPING. ohh my.. i have such sweet teen memories..
yesterday definitely made me feel like we've all grown. turning to a woman ey? back then, we wore big tshirts or plain spaghetti, denim short skirts and sneakers. everyone had jet black hair and our eyes were pasted with JUST white eyeshadow. not to forget, grey or brown contacts. HEHEHAHE. but yesterday, we were in heels, wedges and platforms, dresses n skirts. make up was serious. clutch bags, handbags and ciggies. wow. if i dont think about it, i wont realise how much we've all changed..
i love you guys so much. that hasnt change. xoxo (my ass)
smiled at 5:57 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
tonight was a saturday night with a little twist. didnt spend it like how i usually do. i went to "Forum Perdana Ehwal Islam" with selet at the Singapore expo. im sure you've heard of it before.if you tuned it to Malaysia's RTM 1 you might've seen us appear on tv. lol. a'huh in full dress hijab. yeah so this Muslim forum was held in Singapore for the first time. didnt wanna miss it.
for once we felt like its the future. "omg we're so gonna look like this everyday sooooon!" we so couldnt stop laughing.
we felt old. but it felt good at the same time. i guess thats the power of hijab on woman. you feel like you really do respect yourself n your assets. sigh. i wonder, when will i be a strong muslim woman?
soon i guess..? Insyaallah.
smiled at 12:39 AM
Saturday, December 20, 2008
with love,
nini just came back from Jakarta and she bought us girls a ring each. we have the same ring only different in colour. mine's brown. its so pretty i love it! thank you zainenette.......... muaah!
earth! wind! water! fire! heart!
smiled at 2:21 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
im suppose to be patient and wait for Sunday for the result of my 1st week's diet n exercise programme. but i couldnt! heheh. so i checked my weight. and found out that... I'VE LOST 3 KILOGRAMS!!!!WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
damn. 3 straight days of working out n eating like a slave is paying off. i'm so happy! :) oh and, i could feel that my arms are gettin harder n tighter. OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant believe i didnt state my current weight n shits anywhere. so here goes:
Weight on 14 December 2008: 85kg
Weight on 17 December 2008: 82kg
Target by 28 December 2008: 80kg
Target by 11 January 2009: 75kg
Target by 25 January 2009: 70kg
Target by 8 February 2009: 65kg
is this realistic?
yep. im targetting 5kgs in 2 weeks! im 1.62cm and i would LOVEEE to be 65kg. im not so much into being too slim. i love having some meat n curves. NYAHA! i mean. i've never been slim all my life. so being a little fatter is just in me and i kinda love it. it makes me feel unique cos almost every girl here is slim like hell. but now NO WAY! im gettin TOO FAT.
so for me to be 65kg i guess it'll take about 3 full months (or maybe more) of determination n hardwork. i hope i'll be this obsessed throughout so it'll be smooth sailing. :D
yeah baby, please cheer me on!
smiled at 1:04 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
ya know what. im gonna stop blogging about my diet here altogether. i'll blog about it in another blog. a secret blog. hahaha.so whats been happenin? pretty much nothing. besides being obssessed with you know what.
i honestly miss my friends. i miss my girlfriends. we so should meet again and this time FULL set cos nini came back from Jakarta already! YAY! buddy hoagies pleeease...
i miss pokaywaks. i dont care im gonna meet u guys this long holiday. and u better be prepared to entertain me. i miss mary. i miss sakeena. i miss azimah. i miss nell. i miss ria. i miss belinda. i miss laney. i miss lane. damn i miss lane. where on earth is she?! i miss coco. i miss 'abg encem'. i miss azly. no wait. i dont miss him. HAHA. wow.. im not kidding i miss my friends badly. i've been keeping to myself busy with work and uhhh. exercise?
am i a loner? why am i a loner?
my blog is gettin fucking boring. i am so gonna upload some pics up. i cant stand the sight of my blog. so wordy. bleargh.
smiled at 9:18 AM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
FATS UPDATE:yesterday was the 1st day of my journey to losing weight. and it went great! the food intake was as planned. and the exercise wasn't in the plan at all! woohoo!
ok this might sound crazy. but there are articles that Maria showed me and it says if you keep on eating throughout the day (but of course little!) your metabolism gets better and your food digests better too. which equals to.. uhmm. i dont know how to explain.
well anyways, this was how i ate yesterday
(bear in mind im not on a strict "VEGE" diet cos i know that wont last):
7am : 1 slice of bread with 1/2 egg
10am: 1 slice of bread with tuna
1pm: 1 slice of bread with tuna n 2 bananas
4pm: 1 slice of bread with peanut butter (no cholestrol)
5pm: 1 slice of bread with peanut butter again (HAHA. I WAS FREAKIN HUNGRY)
7pm: 1 scoop of rice with chicken
wokay. woooh thats a lot. hmm lookin at this i think i need to cut down more on my carbs. damn. i was already so freakin hungry i wonder what will happen to me if i cut down more. i really hope this works mann.
for the exercise.. it was EXCELLENT. a full hour of brisk walking and jogging with Maria. cant wait to do it again later tonight!
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8.23pm update
today's food intake:
7am: 2 slices of bread with beef
10am: 1 banana
1pm: 1 slice of wholemeal bread wit tuna and like 4tbsp rice with some chicken (MY SISTER'S FAULT)
4pm: 1 banana
7pm: 1 scoop of rice with fish, n 2 small prawns n fishball soup
i THINK today's was a little lesser carbo. slowly i'll cut down more. hopefully i'll be able to manage with just 2 slices of wholemeal bread and 1 scoop of rice soon. :D
im so obssessed about losing weight. im thinking about it 24/7 and i love it.
ok im off to jog! HEHE
smiled at 11:47 AM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
PLEASE HAVE DAMAGED - DANITY KANE TUNE IN UR MIND:do, do you got a hair serum handy?
do, do you know how to moisten my hair its frizzy
are are are are you, are you lotion or somethin?
cos i might need some help, to stop this hair from lookin like crap!
i tried every remedy but nothing seems to work on me
cos my hair is damaged, damaged, damaged, damaged
i thought that it already shows
that my hair is damaged, damaged, damaged, damaged
and you can blame the stylist before
so how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?
SIGH. i am just surrounded with problems!
okay now, lets talk about the usual problem: i have a few hours more to Monday, December 15.. the first day of my diet plan! ironically, im excited! lose that fats!
first goal: to have body like Jordin Sparks. she's not thin. but she's not fat either. IM TRYIN TO BE REALISTIC HERE.
i wonder how heavy is she?
smiled at 8:47 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2008
HOT TOPIC: ITS HARD TO BE A GIRL BUT I LOVE IT!i asked my girlfriend to touch my hair and tell me if it is soft. she touched it and immediately said. "damn.. its rough".
AAAAAAH! i've been spending TIME and MONEY on my hair and its still ROUGH! DAMN. guess what. im gonna fuck it and try the MAYONNAISE remedy. no im not crazy. MANY have done it before and they say it works. youtube it! if that doesn't work too, i think, im gonna chop my hair off. RIGHT.
SEPHORA!!! i was standing beside a woman on the train reading a newspaper and i saw the most interesting article in history. SEPHORA is opening in Singapore! SMILE. my birthday is soon . 5th January.... omg..
DIET PLAN. im gonna start next week. (I DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES I'VE SAID THIS!) but yes. im gonna try the EAT LESS BUT MORE TIMES thing. i'll be jotting down HERE what i've eaten for the day at the end of the day. HOPEFULLY i'll be embarrass to eat too much. nope. NO CHEATING. i hope it'll work. CRYYY. i have to do this. i have to.. someone wanted to give me seat in the train yesterday! until she saw my high heeled shoes... then i guess she figured that im NOT pregnant. CRYYYYY.........
well.... im glad i met with girlfriends today! missed them so much! AND. FAEZAH got herself a license two days ago!! WOOHOO! road trip road trip!!
i feel like screaming AAAAAHHHHH!
smiled at 11:45 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
i doubt i can blog at work anymore. work has been crazy lately.i think its partly because im new to all of this. i feel like the workload is being shoved into my mouth and i have to swallow it whether i like it or not. im drowning flapping my hands and feet trying hard to survive. no kidding i almost cried at work justnow.
a whole lot of accounts junk was given to me for me to sort it out. and mind you i've NEVER done any accounts before. to make it worse, everything was in a mess cos the previous girl didnt organize it well. and mr boss is being a typical boss.
"ooh i have no idea how to do it.. Nadia did all of it for me back then.. you find out how to do ok" SIGH.
and on top of that, the legal files are piling and piling non stop. there is no way i can do office stuff AND the files between 9 to 6. :(
oh-my-god. now i feel like someone just slapped me in the face and say
"you want to be a manager so much huh? take that! MANAGE everything yourself"
time management. organization. suddenly this is so fucking important in my life.
somebody save me.....
smiled at 11:48 PM
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
i cant stand myself. I've been extremely disorganized lately. i don't clean my room, i don't clear my laundry and I'm a mess back in office. boy, i badly need to sit down and start listing the stuff that i need to do and start my life properly back again.honestly, this 'dirty laundry' song is up partly to remind myself that i have piles and piles of clothes that needs to be washed! argh! (of course its also my favourite song at the moment)
i may be a bit late but oh wells, Happy Aidiladha to all! how was yours?? mine went great!
ok i lied. mine wasn't THAT great. earlier part of the day, when i was at the mosque, i didn't know that i couldn't watch the sheep being slaughtered anymore! I've been fine with watching for the past years but this time, goodness. a little too dramatic but yeah. i cried, puked and trembled all at the same time!
i came with full of confidence and stood right beside the group of people putting the sheep down... as soon as the knife (or is it parang?) did its thing.. i turned away and i started to cry and puke. then i could feel my body tremble and my head started to spin. goodness.....
my mom was shocked. lol. so we walked away and i thought to myself "gosh. whats wrong with u? stop being a pussy. these sheeps die for a reason. and they'll be at a better place in no time!"
so yeah. after a few rounds of watching i was ok. i bet i still had that expression on my face but i was ok. those sheep's will so be at a better place. their meat were distributed to the needy. Alhamdulillah.
after the mosque, we headed to my uncle's house to have the usual Aidiladha gathering and at the same time to celebrate Irfan's first bday ever! it was great! Irfan didn't stop crying as soon as we reached (our relatives were considered unfamiliar to him). he cried for about an hour and we were all wondering how on earth do we make him cut the cake? well.. we decided to go on with the plan anyway. about 40 of us gathered, and started singing him a birthday song.. miraculously he stopped crying for the rest of the day! lol. in fact, he had fun mingling with everyone!
ooooh damn! i thought of uploading the pictures but then i just realized that my dad left the camera in the car! grrr.
till next time!
smiled at 8:23 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
i've been patient. letting someone make me cry all the single fucking time. thats not suppose to happen anymore. the promise i made to myself, i broke it.im not extreme. for god sakes its hard to make myself even pray once a day. i know im not a good muslim. but there are some things that i cant do and it means I CANT. i dont drink. i dont go around having sex. and i can't and won't marry someone of other religion. thats the least i could do to show that im still a muslim. and you are nobody to question my beliefs. because u dont even know what being a muslim is.
you're basically a man with a bruised ego, out to make me feel bitter because you could not have your way. wait? are you even a man in the first place? i can't be with you because of my beliefs, the least you should do, even how hard it is for you to swallow, is to respect me much less mock me and scorn me. you've made me tear again and again, and i hope you're happy receiving whatever you have set out to do, and that is putting me to my misery. mission accomplished? I hope so.
Take it like a man and leave, and while you are it, please bring along your wounded pride with you. believe me, i've had feelings for you, it was hard for me as much as it was for you, but now after everything, i'm glad it has turned out this way because i get to see the real nasty side of you. i'm not regretting anything, and i will walk on ahead with chin up because i know where my loyalties lie, thank you.
Please know that whatever that was said, and done, and left unsaid, and undone, there was no slightest intention in me to cause any hurt. Even after everything that had happened, we did share some beautiful memories together and I'm still grateful for every one of them. .It is this way, because it has to be, I hope you will accept it and take it in your stride.
i hope you'll be happy with the other muslim. who doesnt even call herself a muslim. if she doesn't care much about her religion. thats her choice. I AM NOT HER, nor am i other muslims u've talked to. so quit comparing.
dont question why i blog about this. this is my "damn blog" and i'll blog about whatever that bothers me.
smiled at 7:40 PM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Chinatown. that is where my office is located. and that is also where you can find uncountable Chinese senior citizens. they're either walking with sticks, sitting on wheelchairs or if not, they'd be walking at 200m/h.i have to say that i have a soft spot for them. my heart can just sink just by looking at them. so imagine how many times i would smile or giggle to myself everyday.
a nyonya (old Chinese lady) was crossing the road when she suddenly stopped and sat right in the middle.. a young lady near her quickly grabbed her hand and asked her to move.. then that old woman said "oooh.. pu keyi ah?" or in english, "oooh.. i cant do that?" slowly she walked to a nearby pathway and sat on the floor again (when actually there were many chairs around). hehe.
i crossed path with an apek (old Chinese man) wearing OAKLEY shades at night. the tricky part is, the glass on one of the side was gone so u could see his eye. HEHEHEHEHE.
one of the most typical scene would be apeks or nyonyas sitting at the coffee shop all alone. some of them have serious conversations (to themselves of course) and some looked like they're having a very merry conversation. hehe.
i consider them lucky to have live this long.. well.. we'll all be like that one day.. IF we're lucky enough..
they're sooo cute.
singapore = ageing population = OMG sec 3 social studies!
smiled at 10:36 PM
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